God I have been struggling. For days and weeks. How can I be happy? How can I find satisfaction and joy in the midst of this pain?
Romans 12:12 has always been my go to verse “Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer.” But how do I stay patient in this affliction? Where is the joy? I do have hope for a future, but my present is so painful.
I heard this song today. It has cleared a path a little in my mind.
God you don’t need me But somehow you want me Oh how you love me And somehow that frees me To take my hands off of my life And the way it should go To open my hands up And give you control This world has lost its grip on me
The world has lost its grip on me. Why am I letting worldly physical issues stand in my way of my joy in the Lord? My joy in life? My sister says often that we are “vessels” carrying the Holy Spirit. My role in this life is to carry the Spirit with me and share Him with whoever I come across. Why am I letting such a small problem in Gods eyes, that God has already promised to take care of, fill me with such despair and steal my joy and contentment? God doesn’t need me! He WANTS me! So the world is losing its grip on me. The more I can wrap my mind around this, the more content I will be in this season of my life.
Be content in right now. Whatever the Lord has planned for the future, HE has the plan and He’s putting in the work to put it in motion. It is in the best hands possible and it’s a good plan and will be best for you. You can’t do anything about it. Even thinking about it won’t help. So just forget it. Pray for the man when you think of him. Otherwise let it go. Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer. Don’t look at him at all. Don’t let his life have any impact on yours. He might go this way or that, but God has a plan for our future that I can’t put in motion myself. He already has it in motion and He loves that man and is doing what is best for us. Even when he falls into so much deep pain. Fix your eyes on God.
Don’t stand close to the water. He’ll pull you under. He’ll pull you under.
Matthew 19:29-30 29And everyone who has left houses or brothers or sisters or father or mother or wife or children or fields for my sake will receive a hundred times as much and will inherit eternal life. 30But many who are first will be last, and many who are last will be first.
Romans 8:28 And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.