“Fear of man will prove to be a snare, but whoever trusts in the Lord is kept safe.” Proverbs 29:25
It is time for me to give up my husband and start living my life as me. As a single woman of God who loves the Lord her God with all her heart and loves her neighbors, kids, family, friends, church, and community as herself. I have to give up the fear of man. I want him still, but he is gone. This is all part of Gods plan. It’s okay! It’s good! It will be for the best and it is part of His plan!
“But even if you suffer for doing what is right, God will reward you for it. So don’t worry or be afraid of their threats.” 1 Peter 3:14
It has been my fear. The pain. I’ve already suffered so much of it and even in losing this man, still I suffer. But I don’t have to be afraid. Even if he gets remarried and has more kids and a new family. God has a plan and it is all going to lead to good for me. I won’t be afraid. God has a reward for me.
Lord use me. Whatever you have for me to do, ask me and I will. You have already asked me to do hard and painful things and you have seen my faithfulness. So if you want me right now, ask me again. Anything you need from me Lord, I am yours. God, I am human. I want happiness. I have desires. I have lots of things I wish you would just snap your fingers and do for me, but Lord I give up my plans, my dreams, and my future. Instead, I am putting my trust in you. Whatever your plans are, Lord I know they are better than mine and I know that you have the power to accomplish them Lord, so I give up. You take over and do what you need to do to make Your plans happen. I’m gonna sit back and let you have control of this life and if you need me to do something, let me know and I’ll do it. I am yours Lord. I trust you. Have your way in me.
“Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.” Matthew 6:34
“Humble yourselves, then, under God’s mighty hand, so that he will lift you up in his own good time. Leave all your worries with him, because he cares for you.” 1 Peter 5:6-7
“The angel of the Lord encamps around those who fear him, and he delivers them.” Psalm 34:7
“He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High will rest in the shadow of the Almighty. I will say of the Lord, “He is my refuge and my fortress, my God, in whom I trust.”…He will cover you with his feathers, and under his wings you will find refuge; his faithfulness will be your shield and rampart. You will not fear the terror of night, nor the arrow that flies by day, nor the pestilence that stalks in the darkness, nor the plague that destroys at midday. A thousand may fall at your side, ten thousand at your right hand, but it will not come near you…For he will command his angels concerning you, to guard you in all your ways…“Because he loves me,” says the Lord, “I will rescue him; I will protect him, for he acknowledges my name. He will call upon me, and I will answer him; I will be with him in trouble, I will deliver him and honor him…” from Psalm 91:1-16
Lord, I don’t have to have all the answers right now. I’m just going to pursue the One who does.