I have been losing my mind in the business of life recently. Between getting kids to school and getting their homework done, between cooking dinners and cleaning house, between car repairs and home repairs, and oh yeah that little thing called full time work. Add on elderly parents, leading bible studies, attending church, and socializing with friends. Then sprinkle a little holiday choas. That's my world right now.
But that's not really my world. These are blessings. Things that God has given me to steward and care for absolutely, but this is not my real world.
Philippians 3:20 says "But our citizenship is in heaven, and from it we await a Savior, the Lord Jesus Christ"
It is so hard to remind myself, but it is so important. I am not saying not to do all the good things God has for you to do. God made me a mom. That means I should take care of the gift God has given me, my kids, and steward them to the best of my ability. That means taking them to school, helping them with homework, feeding them, clothing them, working hard to be able to pay the bills, and maintaining the home that we live in.
But as I am doing these things, I have to remember that this is not my real world. God doesn't want me to lose my focus on my God.
Matthew 6:19 says "Do not lay up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth and rust destroy and where thieves break in and steal"
Colossians 3:2 says "Set your minds on things that are above, not on things that are on earth."
I'm writing this really as a reminder to myself. I can get so fixated on what I have to get done with my day. I can literally watch the hours tick away with my checklist and never even stop to breathe a "hello, Lord". How sad! I really don't want to waste a day without my daily bread.
That's just a day, but quickly a day can turn into a week. A week could become a month. A month can soon turn into a year and then several of those. What does it take to make a habit? Do something consistently for 30 days and it will be a habit. I want to make a habit of spending my day in the Lord's presence. I want to make a habit of inviting God into every moment, every decision, every minute of my life. I want to make a habit of spending my time doing the things that God has called me to, both stewarding the things He has given me to steward, and also walking in the purposes He sets before me daily. I don't want to just sprinkle God onto the top of my day. I want my day orbiting around Him.
Matthew 6:24 "No one can serve two masters, for either he will hate the one and love the other, or he will be devoted to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve God and money."
What happens though when I make my habit myself? When I keep my eyes fixed on the worries of this world? When I do sprinkle God onto the top of my self-centered life?
1 John 2:15-16 "Do not love the world or the things in the world. If anyone loves the world, the love of the Father is not in him. For all that is in the world—the desires of the flesh and the desires of the eyes and pride of life—is not from the Father but is from the world."
Matthew 16:26 "For what will it profit a man if he gains the whole world and forfeits his soul? Or what shall a man give in return for his soul?"
The greatest tragedy would be to have a busy and accomplished life at the expense of my soul. Let the projects fall to the wayside, take a break, take a breath. Don't do the dishes or wash the kids tonight (yeah I said it) if that is what you need to do in order to fix your focus back on God and off of the business of life. We need to steward well, absolutely, but not at the expense of spending our time with the God who gave you those gifts to steward. Those gifts were His way of helping you see Him. Don't fix your eyes on the gifts. Fix your eyes on the giver.